It was snowing on the second day in korea. I got up at 1030 and I was like is that snow?!?! I jumped into my jeans, pulled on my jacket and scarf, and the next thing you know, I was in the snow trying to stabilise my hands to snap this photo cause it was ASS cold.(: Snow ain't that great once you've experienced it I guess, its gets your clothes all wet and damp when you enter shelter. HAHA I'm guessing its this idea of white soft cotton falling onto your face while you hold a hot mug of coffee in your hand, or standing by the window watching snow fall while you hear wood crackle at the fireplace behind you.misled.

Well we got to san fran with a couple of delays, but it was fantastic, shopped, ate, shop, ate, chilled out with the crew. 7 of us had made our way to the famous cheesecake factory, had our fill of pasta bolognese, chicken Madeira, spicy drumlets and ultimately GODIVA cheesecake! (: totally yumms! Well, after our hearty meal, we continued on our quest to make merchants and spirits happy while our wallets mourned. Damage: As of below (:
Made our way back to korea and this time, we headed out for this dish you see below, its like chewier, thicker glass noodles, stewed with potatoes, carrots and chicken. It has this tangy and spicy taste to it. This huge bowl fed 5 hungry girls.I'd say its a must try when you're in korea:)

The flight was great because of the crew(: Makes the 8days seem to fly by just like that. Hope to fly with them again.

Cherrios peeps(:

Why am I like this?

Why is it that I know that my mom means well, but yet I always get agitated when she tells or asks me something. I think there's something that has been lingering with me since young. Maybe its the fact that my mom has been several times fiercely critical about me and the things I choose. Negative comments that I would never forget, that somehow the feeling of frustration found a way to stay. I don't hate my mom, I just feel like I'm always under their microscope, its like they're waiting for me to do something which they don't approve and go see, I already told you. It so irritating that she calls me over the phone and sounded like I just lost the car when in fact it was just that I forgot to put the cash card back. Like how can the cash card be stolen if the car hasn't been broken into? And then she follows with another call and tells me that the TP sent a letter regarding my speeding ticket, and she was all you haven't paid your fine yet? How come now send to you? I seriously don't know whats wrong. I always try to breath and focus on good energy when I talk to her, but sometimes I just can't.

I don't blame my childhood, I had a great one in fact. Maybe I haven't found a way to get pass the negativity and many times my mom could not understand what I was going through and blew her top at me. I hate feeling angry and frustrated.Sometimes I ask myself, is asking for privacy a sin? Is asking her to knock before she enters my room that great a deal? I remember the time I told her that I'd rather she not open my mail, she got all angry and defensive, and it made it feel like it was my fault. When I'm changing or brushing my teeth, she comes straight in to tell me something, and I get hell irritated cause I hate to feel like I've got no privacy and I've got a room but its not mine. I know my mom means no harm at all, and all she wants is the best for me. She's really nice to me now and all. But she could have done it when I was much younger and vulnerable. I need to find solace.

-9deg. Whoohoo

Came back into Seoul yesterday night and it was a chillin -5deg when we touched down and -9deg when we went out for dinner.Gosh its cold. San fran was fun although all we did most of the time was shop. We were all too tired to make a trip down to fisherman's wharf where we would have had crabs and clam chowder soup:( seriously too little time, so 7 fo us settled for lunch at the Cheesecake factory! The flight seems so much more exciting when the crew are all so fun. Spewing loads of laughter, sharing each other's life and talking about how god likes to sometimes teach us valuable lessons the really hard way,the flight-worth it. (:

Goin out later to meet em' for lunch. Stew chicken with glass noodles at myeung dong*correct spelling?how should I know!* Go shopping with the crew although my bag has a serious space problem after SF. I'm always so afraid that my luggage would burst open and all my clothes and stuff would lay expose on the conveyor belt. Imagine, me in my uniform, walking all graciously*at least I TRY!* going to retrieve my cargo bag from the belt and suddenly I start to see familiar items strewn along the belt, and at this point I can't run and say fucking shit, or shittyfuck, I probably am only allowed to go oh goddamit!Which is seriously an understatement of what I would exclaim at that point of time. Iwould then have to walk to the belt to pick up item by item looking as though I don't own em' but am just being a kind soul. With that constantly playing out in my mind, I always try not to over pack my luggage. So far, attempts to not fill the luggage to the brim, ZERO! haha Well, i actually had to lie on my cargo bag so that I could lock the latch. MAN! hey to be fair it was already filled before I even started shopping because of my winter wear and all.

Flight was overall good, to me, as long as the crew are fun, a full flight of crappy passengers won't matter. Cause we all SUFFER together. hahaha

Cherrios peeps!

I thought it was time for a change(: Just like everything else, besides your boyfriend of course. As I say this John Meyer's "waiting on the world to change"plays over my stereo, irony. We need changes to know that we as humans are constantly upgrading our software*no not computer software if thats what some of you are thinking*, that our brains are not rotting in some container filled with chemicals. *morbid*

Well, got this skin from blogspot..too lazy to learn how to create my own skin, well if people made this sorta things to share why don't I just share their creativity. (: haha.

Not sleeping for 24hrs is already bad enough, to work 12 hours straight without sitting for more then an hour really made the icing on the cake.legs were tired from running, now its freakin ACHING! But am going to run tomorrow evening with K, fight pain with pain. Thats the way to go. Before that I intend to go for my yoga as well. Really need to plan my yoga vacation.March is definitely out, because I would be goin to Barce with trish and I'd be a poor pokker, so I think its better to push it to a later part of the year. But I definitely must go, some soul searching, some peace and to clear my head so that I can find he right direction for my future and lastly to pray for my life ahead. All that to come in this new 2008(:

Andrea Bocelli kept me company while I ran. His voice, so Bassy, so soothing as I ran to besame mucho and other of his tracks. I love running at east coast for the fact that there are so many things to keep your mind occupied and away from thinkin that you're tired, and you want to stop. So yeah, I think its a good place to run. Well, kinda trying to pick up running again, stopped ever since er...haha let's not even go there. Use to run and blade with Isaac and a couple of friends, but now he's so busy so we stopped.

As I run past couples lazin the afternoon away on the bench and it made me wonder if I could ever be them, take time to watch the afternoon fade, to just enjoy the serenity with my partner. Well I thought as my heart was pumping like a mad horse, perhaps someday. Then again, its more feasible when you're overseas, when you're not cluttered with errands, with school.

I love to breath in the air when I'm outstationed. The air is so different, so fresh, especially during winter.. I love winter, totally refreshing. Looking forward to Icheon and S.fran, its -4deg in korea..I love it.(: Goin to run again on fri or sat with K.

Anyway, I finallt got my DS(:

Aim KK helped me to buy..hee less the trouble of trying to figure out whats better and all. I trust him with electronic gadgets. yay..couldn't stop playing it, my lil' bro could stop playing with it too..hurhur..Its to keep me company when I travel, yes yes I know you'd probably be goin where are my books, hey I need some electronic entertainment too!

Looking forward to my next flight.Hopefully Isaac will still be in S.Fran when I get there, at least I have someone who knows where to go and stuff. Anyway gotta go get ready, have work. Cherrios guys!(:

K is under alot of stress from work. Poorthing. But I think I can see myself in that position of stress when I leave my current job, but I like stress. (: At least it makes me feel important, makes me feel like I have to contribute something in order for things to happen. Maybe thats why I like to study? hahaha.

Well, K got himself a new phone today, nokia 6120, rather impressed with the aesthetics of the phone. Pearl white in colour, with chrome linings, 35MB internal memory, MP3 and FM functions, 3.5G and it's rather slim for a nokia, but nonetheless can't compare it to the feels-like nothing-in-your-pocket SAMSUNG.

Lazy day today. Skipped my law lecture for some peace out time with myself. However, I do have to go buy my textbooks tomorrow. Gonna have brekky with my bros and jocelyn tomorrow.

Short post tonight. Cherrios!

Law of investments and financial markets. GOD ITS BORING! fiduciary duties, duty of care...*yawns* I kinda thought business law in poly was fun, but er...now..I beg to differ. I think I'd find it more appealing if the lecturer was slightly more INTERESTING. haha..

Met up with jess for a cuppa pure choc and a cheesecake at HV to talk about her now unsecure job and what we plan to do in the next 5years of our life, its always nice to have these heart to heart talks about our future and all. At least we will have someone there to remind us if we ever go off track. K came down from work to meet us fro supper, was happy to see him. Its was really nice today cause while we were having supper at crystal jade, it's like he just smiled at me and that made my night(: It felt like we didn't have to say anything and we were happy just for that few seconds right there and then. It has been a really long time since I felt this way without having to say anything, but I wonder if he feels the same way. Doesn't matter I guess (: Except for the rare occasions where I was smiling because there was this joker who was knitting while having supper, he was practically mr. granny. Like hey, knit me something warm. HAHA.

Anyway contemplating if I should go for lecture tomorrow, another 3hrs of law law law law law law law law....Maybe I should pop a couple of sleeping pill before I head in. Sounds like a plan.Anyhoos, gonna check out already guys! Goodnight and Cheerios!

Overexcitment kills me especially when the excitment doesn't actualise.I think that the end of the day, it brings me back to square 1 where having no expectations is still the best way to go. Reason being that when you have no expectations, no one can actually NOT meet that no expectation criteria, so you're actually not disappointed. Which is a good thing(: It kinda helps me to be at peace with alot of things that don't go the way I planned it to be. So I don't hold anyone by the throat with my anger neither do I bottle up any feelings of discontentment. I think its better this way.

Adelaide was great, didn't have to work up, and coming back was rather decent in terms of passenger profile. No compliants working. For the first time I was actually gald to be working, how I wished I didn't have to stop working yesterday then I wouldn't be so bleah. Anyhoos, heading over to Jon's place with K to catch up on some old movies(: Promised myself I was goin to enjoy the day. Losing my peace, which is not good. I need my yoga.

I seriously need to start planning my trips this year, will have to shift my leave till the end of the year for my india trip and the april period to go barce with trish. And I need tons of Mr. Yusof Ishak, have to start saving, kinda pokker now since I paid up for my school fees. But if there's anything more worth paying for its definitely my degree. No matter what the cost(: People may call me silly, like why spend that extra money when sometimes at the end of the day you basically don't need it.I feel its a safty net for me, and its a stepping stone for me towards my future goals, whether I get there at the end of the day is a different story, what matters now is that I do everything within my power and brains to try to get there, so at least if I fall short I wouldhave no one to blame but myself.

OK gotta dash, K's here. PEACE OUT!

Well, spent the whole of yesterday cleaning up my room and study area. It was way overdue. Trust me. Even though I do the regular clothe removal from where ever I need space thing, it still ain't enough. It was just to make myself feel better. (: Anyway, came out with 2 bags of clothes and multiple bags of trash and loads of stuff where you go oh I didn't know I had this, OK bin it!Over the years I have come to my senses for the fact that even though is was a pair of miss sixties, if you know you aren't gonna wear it anymore, why kid yourself by saying ''hmm...maybe I'll wear that someday'' or ''sheesh, can't bear to throw a miss sixty away''so you keep it let it hang in your wardrobe for what seems like forever. GET RID OF IT PEOPLE! Won't wear it? Period. Bag it.

Don't you feel that its kinda like relationships, where people hang on to lousy partners just because they can't bear to throw away the effort and input? What has the effort done for you if at the end of the day your partner still treats you like crap?Go Figure! I just don't get it, why do some girls or guys hang around when their partner takes them for granted, doesn't trust em', tells you oh I feel insecure, and even after multiple attempts to reassure them and the many chances you've gave them they still give you hurt you the same way.Girls and boys, please, if you feel that you're heart can no longer take the beating, leave for crying out loud. If you feel like you've done so much for him and he takes you for granted, please fucking leave. It irritates the hell outta me when I see my close friends getting hurt that way.Well, this would probably be rank the top 10 mysteries in my mind.

Ok back to dust clothes. However even after clearing my wardrobe*I have 2 big wardrobes*, I still don't have enough space for my clothes! HORRIBLE! Had a major sneeze session after cleaning up my room. Its like an indicator of how dusty my room is. The more I sneeze the dustier it is. haha *ridiculous*Now its spick and span. ok maybe not THAT spick and span. But good enough for me to think about re-accessorizing my room.(:

Talk about something happy (: My new found obsession..ok*hope I don't sound creepy* Remember I mention that I met someone new and promised a photo? here it is. This is K, he's really different from the guys I've met. He's definitely smart, definitely charming, in addition he's humorous, he's able to hold really interesting conversations and our likes and dislikes are rather similar, and he laughs at my lamest and most ridiculous jokes. Makes me feel like I'm in secondary school again. Not your typical Singaporean men.UGH!

Happy New Year

Spent my counting down to the new year in the galley, We were just standing around and suddenly it was oh gosh its midnight, so it was just tired greetings of ''happy new year'' and the faces that showed *why the fuck are we here*. (: Funnies.

Anyway just when I mentioned why can't I meet someone who would just say hey I like you and the whole ding dang, I actually met someone(: The irony. We get along great and kinda realised that we share certain similiar beliefs and thoughts. So yeah.Will put up a photo (:

Schools gonna start already, so its like motivation motivation where is it. But I haven't lost it yet for that matter. I promised myself bigger things, bigger accomplishments, and I must achieve it.So much for determination. Words. HAHA..

Oh ok pictures from my male trip!

Need I say more?(: