Today was good to me (: I am a happy girl today. hahaha I think I'm nuts.

Anyway,Malvin, who did my first tatt smsed probably all his previous clients to tell us that he had moved location. I was looking high and low for him to do my other tatt. But oh well, the guy who did my second one did a fantastic job(: no qualms bout it.

Went for yoga today and I must admit, ashtanga is really challenging, makes you wanna push yourself to twist more, to be able to bend more. Really good. Did the bridge today, and I must admit I was amaze that I was able to do it! Didn't think I could have done it. It was only my second ashtanga class. I mean I have gone for other classes, but I do remember the first time the instructor asked us to do the bridge, I couldn't even lift my shoulders up! god. Anyway gonna want to perfect my shoulder and headstand. (:

Went for a run today with Isaac at macritchie. 3.2km(he ran the 5.2km route) and I almost died. Thank god I used yoga's breathing technics, if not I think I might just have suffered from cardiac arrest in the forrest and nobody would know!!! hahahaha, now, THAT would be hilarious.

Now my entire body is aching, culfs hurts, hemstrings over pulled...shoulder kinda suan~ tomorrow is rest day for me (: gonna catch up with trish and sha an discuss our hongkong trip, that is if trish can still get the staff travel!!! God please help.

Ok off to dreamy land. Cherrios! (:

All your turkish desserts! Super yummy!! (:

Blue Mosque. Kinda shabby weather that day(:

This is the inside of the mosque. pretty magnificent!

This was beef with rice wih spinach. Looks questionable(:

View from where we were having lunch!

Lunch in Istanbul. With teamgirl vera!(:

Yesss...Ok pictures are up, not many I know...nothing much to take anyway. all these photos were taken in Istanbul. Didn't even whip out my camera.

I thought I was gonna be happy, I guess I was for a night, am still, but I thought it was gonna be better. Does love last for a night only? Cause if it does, I'm in trouble, I want to love and be loved, but not for a night. Its so heart gripping when you want to love someone but that person doesn't let you. Why does god do this to me? Maybe he wants me to learn that its so easy to love someone, but not as easy to unlove someone. It was rather easy to unlove someone, but not in this situation.

To me, I felt like it was right between us, he always makes my heart smile. But I could be wrong. Maybe its only me who feels its right, maybe he doesn't. Probably he isn't ready to go out wth someone so much younger. I am not wild, I not not grounded. I want what everybody wants, a simple and a life filled with love. Is that too much to ask? I want to spend my life with someone, I want to love that someone forever. I promise to love that person I love for the rest of my life. I don't wanna waste time finding and developing another relationship with the same set of insecurities. I am contented with the present and I think he's the best. Oh well, then again, if things aren't meant to be, no point forcing. I guess I'll just have to let thing happen by themselves. If at the end of the day, we don't end up together, I'll cry, grip my heart and then tell myself that we're not meant to be. but FUCK man, I always believed that what happens most of the time is what we do to make it happen, not let nature determine.

Fuck, I'm going crazy even talking about it. I ust gonna take this trip to dubai to let things work out by themselves, and see what happens. No mood to smile when my heart's not smiling.