PHOTOS!

Hooray!! the Infra-red decided to work, you know what this means, the PICTURES are UP!

1) Markie's Birthday

6 FREAKIN Huge Blobs of yummilicious Ice-Cream!! (:

Mark With his Strawberry and Rock Melon Ice Cream...

Qing Chair With her CNC and Wild berry, you people must be drooling by now :P

Here's mine! :) green tea and rock melon! the Green tea was FANTASTIC!!!!

2) Girly's Birthday at darrin's place (Two photos only cause I forgot to take!!!)

We were blowing the balloons and this one turned out to resemble a DICK! whaha so we were just being silly. (: A slightly more erect one. AHAHAHAHHA

I love the Acuvue Advance Astig! Its damn super comfy and its clear! However I think it wasn't as clear as the softlens pair she gave me the other time! hmmm*weird* Anyway after fitting my contacts, I met gary for lunch and we had ipoh horfun at holland!*yummy* He got me this raher interesting 6 colour pen from japan..whaha damn cute. We went to chill after that...he had a flight in the evening, so we hung out for awhile. (:

Well, today went down to STC with my brother*he is my surety*, on the way down IT RAINED, and we were both caught in the freakin rain!Anyway, when we got there I realised I was the most slack one there!hahaha I was wearing this berms and a topshop long tank top with a belt coupled together with my trusty birks! When I got there and saw the others who were there to sign the contract too, they were wearin formal and and the whole sha~bam make up, long sleeve and all. I felt so funny. Opps! That just goes to show how serious they are about this FA job!*FA means flight attendant*Hey! but I'm not saying I'm not serious ok! its just that I mean its just signing pieces of paper right? heh nvm. I'm weird (: I LIKE....

Suppose to meet debbs for tau~huay at rochor, but the sickening rain made it impossible to go anywhere mush less do anything. So I headed down to FASHION CENTRE to get my kebaya tailored. I mean I could go tomorrow, but since I had time to burn, might as well us it wisely. Had slight trouble finding the place, turned out it was located at one of those peranakan shop houses opposite the youth park. The aunty who took my measurements was telling me that its either we start getting used to the tightness of the kebaya or you will NEVER get used to the tightness! she was like grabbing and pinning it smaller and smaller! gosh I really wonder how I would look in the kebaya again! can't wait to go collect it! (: Will get 4 sets I think. Fashion Centre has been making kebaya since a long long time ago, they have all the old photos of them measuring and making the very first and old kebaya!! gosh! they are pros!*salute*

We had to cancel our run at ECP today again! so irritating!!!!! ARGH!!! I want to run!!!! Gonna have a girls night at girly's place tomorrow, we're gonna watch the disney classics! hooray! being small girls again is FUN! (: can't wait. sit in our PJs*ok not really Pjs, but sleep shorts* and giggle and laugh like some retard.

Screw the damn bloody pictures, been trying for the past 2 days to get my silly phone to send the pictures using the infra-red.God damn thing just doesn't want to work!sheesh! When I do get it to transfer, it would probably be god knows when.*I apologise people, no pictures for now*

Anyway, I got henna done for my hair on sunday, went down to my mom's shop to let her thai friend do the henna. Its really not bad, although the smell after you wash the henna off smells rather terrible! I had to shampoo it twice, condition like mad and after that put some hair mask to hide the smell. It was ugh! Oh and my hair was wrapped up in syringe wrap*is that how you spell it?* anyway had to leave it on for hours!! The nice lady was kind enough to bring a scarf for me, but I still looked like some arab or muslim woman.WHAHAH damn funny, everyone who walked past gave me this WTF face.

Yesterday, I met girly in town to go shopping, but I couldn't shop much with her cause I had to go meet other friends. *Girly, I LIKE THAT MANGO DRESS!!!* so pretty. Anyway, I went to meet my friends, but it was raining, super mood spoiler. so we just ended up having dinner only.

Gonna go holland to get my contacts fitted today. yays...super clear eyesight here I come (:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LIL' BROTHER. Ok I'm a day late. (: Went to TamPoPo*its on the basement of medi-ya* yesterday with Qing chair, my aunty, uncle and lil' brother to celebrate his17th birthday. I thought he would be going out with his friends to celebrate. But he didn't, instead he was at home! Anyway my aunty and uncle were soo nice, brought us out for his birthday dinner! yummy, should have taken picture of the food, it was niceeeeee. I had this black pig shabu shabu Ramen, my lil' brother had his katsu curry, qing chair had her ton or don katsu, my uncle had katsu don I think and my aunty had cold noodles which was damn nice. The restaurant's food was really authentic compared to some other jap places. Their desserts was great too, had a cotton cream cake, milk pudding*yumms* and _____ scoop cake. Next frieday, its my trn to celebrate my 21st birthday! Probably having a simple get together at my grandparents place.

After dinner, we had this super delicious ice-cream which was situated inside medi-ya, it was cheap and good!!!! two scoops for $4! and the lady was damn generuos with the portion! I had green tea and rock melon, my lil bro had rock melon and I forgot, my cousin had wild berry and cookies and cream I think. I took photos of our extremely nice ice cream*it was damn huge*suppose to put it on to make lihui jealous* whaha :) I can't post the pictures yet caus emy stupid phone can't seem to detect my laptop's infra-red.stupid. When I do get it to transfer I will post the pictures.

After dinner with my family, my uncle gave me lift to Taka, where I met up with girly and Hum. We were going to celebrate an early birthday for girly. We ended up at Sun with Moon, jap again haha, but it was nice. Didn't really eat cause I was so stuff with the ice-cream that I had like two pieces of the sushi, not bad, the food was really not bad! Girly had some salmon tea thingy, and hum had the beef sukiyaki! Sat there eating and talking about hum's horrible ex gf. After dinner we went down to holland to chill, we went to coffee bean for a nice slow chill-out. Met Veron*my sec school friend* she's working as a operator for cycle and carriage now, it was great to catch up with her. Gonna arrange to meet up soon! (:

We chilled at holland for about 1-2 hrs till 0130 then we decided to head home. Gonna go for girly's party at darrin's place today. I think its gonna be so weird cause its like their gang of friends but oh well, I shall just have fun! (: and its girly's birthday so as long as she's happy during her birthday its all fine with me!

Pictures will be up when my phone decides to connect with my laptop!

Finally got to sleep! However I only got home at 5am!! my brother was already preparing for school when I got home. Anyway, MAMBO was super fun yesterday, a tad bit high, but it was FUN! I shall leave out the fun part..it stays between us 3 girls. Went with Debbs and Vanessa.

Girly's final garment turned out really nice...I love it. and the make-up artiste that she hired was good! shall put some photos up later. *warning, we may look like ghosts*so it may be a good idea to not read my blog at night. Her lecturers were kinds assy, straight-forward and crude. But oh well, I guess its like that in the fashion industry.

Suppose to go play tennis today, but body just wouldn't allow and was kinda feeling sick. so I just spent my day slackin! (: Anyway, I'm bloggin from my friends computer now....later when I get home then will I post the ghastly pictures! whahaha :)

Cheerios (:

Okie, here are a few pictures, the last photo was taken inside Zouk's toilet..we were sweating!

Dejavu I say. Last monday, I stayed over at girly's place to help her with her work, yesterday, I stayed over too! Debbs and I came over to girly's place yesterday afternoon for the fitting of girly's dresses*yes, both of us are gonna be girly's final garment models*(: Reached her place at bout 5pm, then by the time we were done with the fitting we were famished! Debbs went to pick her sister from school while girly and I headed for some yummy'ol Do & Mee Chicken.*its really good I tell you:)*We bought tons of junk at the same time, calebee chips, pokey, biscuits, chicken snacks...whole load of rubbish snacks.

She finally completed both her dresses*claps for girly* only left the hook and her brand tag to sew on. So she spent the night doing up her boards for presentation tomorrow. I fell asleep at 6am going yar, not bad, hmmm yar..whahahahah*according to girly.Anyway, both of us are kinda stoned at the moment.She's a zombie that's for sure, as for me, I think my body might still be able to take the run at ECP today. 5hrs of sleep, I think its sufficient to run. WHAHA at least it held me through last week's run.

Tonight, I'm gonna stay over at girly's place again cause we need to reach her school by 7am for the make-up artiste to do our hair and make-up. Which means that we have to leave the house by 6.15am which means we have to wake up at ard 5.30am! gosh! I think you'll see two Zombies tomorrow.*by the way, Debbs, if you're reading this, you HAVE TO WAKE UP EARLY! haha..the place where we'll pick you up from, I'll arrange with you again later:)*

Ok, gonna head home soon, back kinda feels suan~ gonna go home and rip the cds I borrowed from girly into my iTunes.yay!

Cheerios peeps (:

KAN NI NA BEH CHAO JI BIE! FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!!!! stupid blog, suddenly go back, then I lost all that I typed! motherfucker! Now I have to restart again! FUCK.

Firstly, I think my mom can't handle critisisms. This was our convo:
*it was about my nail shape*

Mom: you shouldn't cut your nails this shape, not nice at all, don't suit you.
Me: huh, but I don't like round tip cause look quite aunty / tai-tai.
Mom:*blackface*shuts up.

I mean seriously, everytime you say my this not nice, that ugly, 90% of the time, all the things I have are ugly to you, nevermind, I respect you cause you're my mother. I think even I'm ugly to her. Never once have I heard her say that I was pretty. It's either oh she's so pretty, or that who's so pretty, never once did she compliment me for me. Most of the time its "huh, so thick ah your make-up*people who know me, know that I hardly hardly wear make-up* or why must wear until like that. Even my nails you want to comment. So to support myself is wrong? To defend my ego, pride and self-respect is wrong? Tell me.someone, tell me. My dad says, must understand where mommy is coming from, must this her must that her. Fuck. So this means that I have no space for personal opinion? I have no space for personal likes / dislikes? Its heartbreaking when your mom treats you like that.

Another thing, eversince I applied for this SIA thing, my mom has been rather pleased that I got through all the interviews and all. And when I finally got the job, I bet she was even happier. I mean its nice that she's happy for me and all, but seriously, I think she's been going around scouting information about a cabin crew's life for me. I want to tell her"mom, I'm not 10yrs old anymore. I know the shit that goes on when you fly, I know the pitfalls as a cabin crew, I know the things that I should avoid, I think I may even know more that what she has dug up from her friends who were once a cabin crew. I DON'T WANT and DON'T NEED soo many people to know that I'm becoming a cabin crew. My friends and family ok, but other then that, I rather keep hush about it.

On a different note, is becoming a cabin crew that prestigious? I mean if you gave me a choice I would immediately choose sudying over becoming a cabin crew. I love academics, I love studying, I want my degree. I feel stupid with just a diploma. I am not undermining a diploma cert. but, I'd like to think of myself as one who likes to persue higher education, someone who can't settle for laggin behind her peers who are going to get their degrees. I hate to feel 'stupidier' than other people. I hate to feel inferior. I know people might argue that I don't have to feel inferior and all. but seriously, the fact that I take my academics seriously and that I can't get my degree now really makes me feel like shit. I feel like I've been thrown off-course. I am doubting my decision about joining SIA. I mean soon enough, I'd be talking a some doink~ eh this is an apple~ *FUCK*

I am starting to detest my life. Help me someone, save me.

"A woman is Like an actress: She is always on stage. She must always look wonderful and feel good. Her dress should be a part of her. She should feel it on her body."

I got this off the Audrey Hepburn Biography book that girly has. I'm bloggin from her room cause I came to help her fit her dress. Oh yeah. Pictures! opps when she's done with it I shall take a picture for you guys to see!

Its raining cats and dogs today, a fantastic day to sleep in and bum around in your PJs*dreaming* oh well, but later gonna have to go out and shop for the accessories to match the dresses. Her final evaluation is this wednesday.

The fact that I'm going to officially become a cabin crew hasn't really settled in yet. Its just weird. Like the make and hair. I'm so gonna have to get used to the thick make-up and using hair spray, oh not forgetting wearin contact lens! (: OHH not forgetting the tight fitting kebaya! sheesh. anyway, blog back later peeps.! cheerios :)

I'M SO BORED!!! Somebody save me! tomorrow is Good Friday, public holiday for many, but for me its just another day!!!!!!!!!ARGH!!!!!!!!!! shit. got to find something to do bleah~

yay!! Finally figured out how to change my blog template. And lovely debbs taught me how to put music on my blog! YAY!!*hugs debbs*

Anyway, I was so bored of waiting for SIA to call that I went out to get cereal and stuff for dinner. Guess what, while waiting for my bus home, SIA called!!! They called to tell me that my transcript which I faxed yesterday will be accepted first but I had to give them my final transcript when I ''officially graduated'', then the lady was ok, your training starts on the 3rd of May! I was like HUH? 3rd of MAY! she was yeah. 3rd of May is MY BIRTHDAY! God's birthday present for me!*how sweet*

Going over to girly's place tomorrow to try her dress cause I'm supposedly her model for her final garment*hopefully I can fit into her dress!!!*whaha girly, don't make it so tight yeah!* going over in the morning to try the dress and then after that going to find accessories to match the dresses. HER DRESSES are PRETTY.I shall post a picture of her dresses here when she's done!

Today was a good day! Slept till abt 11am:), woke up, had 3 small sized eggs, watched charmed. At about 2.20pm the lady from SIA called to ask me to fax my transcript to her.*does that mean I got accepted?*hmmm....anyway, faxed the damn thing to her and I left to meet Lil' Miss trouble-finder debbs at holland. We were apparently poor, so we had ICE KACHANG!*yummy*However, we forgot that we were kinda broke and headed to coffee bean to have a slice of their raspberry cheesecake.*it was alright only, kinda airy taste to the cheesecake* then we just sat there bitchin bitchin and bitchin, bitch about what you ask. We bitch about everything, about men, about girls about everything. You can call it a girly bitcheroo session!:) I love bitchin with that woman. We have the same mentality and attitude towards alot of stuff! WHAHA I'm gonna miss bitchin with her when she's over in AUSSIE. Its alright! when I fly over to sydney, I can go find her to continue bitching! She'd probably have tons of scandalous stories to tell me! WHAHAH *exciting*I'm gonna miss that woman.

Had dinner with girly at taka MOS burger, had our standard fish burger and butterfly prawn!*yumms*we talked rubbish again, well its good anyway. She needs to relax man, she's so damn stressed! after dinner we headed to Kinokuniya*is that how it's spelt?* and she bought this Audrey Hepburn book its damn nice! suits her final garment theme, Totally Awesome!. We waited damn freakin long for a taxi at taka, in the end we decided to call a cab. Anyway I'm glad I have two perfecto pals to help me pass my tretcherously boring days! I LOVE YOU GUYS! *muacks*

I smoke your brand of cigarettes

And pray that you might give me a call

I lie around on bed all day just staring at the walls

Hanging round bars at night

Wishing I had never been born

And give myself to anyone who wants to take me home

- By Garbage: Cup of coffee

I love their songs, their lyrics are very relatable and I love their ATTITUDE! Well, the portion of lyrics above is how I feel sometimes.

YAY! I'm not dead! today only three of us ran. Isaac, myself and Eddy. Shuen couldn't join us cause her ankle's giving her problem, Ziwei has a wake to attend, and Adrian..er..not sure..WHAHA :) I'm so proud of myself, I ran from the first carpark to the middle of the chalet.*pats back* ALL BY MYSELF :)

I was quite shocked when I actually made it to and fro without stopping, considering how much sleep I had today*4Hours only OK!* anyway, while I was running, I saw this guy who was practically sprinting or striding damn freaking fast. I was aready half dead, and here you have this guy with his heart rate monitor running like he's in some race! MADNESS* I think I must run like him*YEA RIGHT!

My body feels pretty good after the sweat session. Tonight's gonna be a wondrful night to sleep! yay...slumber land here I come..(: Isaac asked me if I wanted to go to the golf course with him tomorrow, but its in JB! I don't mind since I got nothing to do! but then again, later SIA call, and I have no auto roam. SHEESH! so irritating. ARGH!!

HEYA PEEPS! ok I'm a lil' stoned right now, cause I just woke up! Kel and I have ben helping girly with her final garment which she has intoday for grading. We worked from 8.30pm till this morning 9am! imagine that! non-stop too!yeah*that explains the stoning part*It was damn funny, the entire night girly was so hungry! we ate tons of POKEY, instant noodles and rubbish.. Girly has been going at it for three days, clocking in 12hrs of work non-stop, my poor friend. *why didn't you call me earlier??!?! whaha silly*Kel has class*she's probably gonna Zonk through the class*I'm awake, but have to go for my ECP run today!!Don't know if I can last that long today! we shall see. If you don't see me blog tonight, you know why*read the straits time morturary section. you will find me there*

Anyway, debbs and I were discussing about older men. Its true that they are most probably out for sex when it comes to going out with a way younger girl.BUTTTT the way they approach it is way way way way way better then guys our age! seriously. And its nice to be treated like a lil' princess :) *Debbs, when you meet Filip, you better not pounce on him!!!hehheh*due to over excitement*:) And I would agree with you that Gary is really really sweet. but hai. you know our situation. Or is it just mine??? heh almost the same! Somebody save us! Maybe its their charm, their charisma that makes girls fall for them. Their smooth moves, sweet words and sensitive side makes a girl weak at her knees when she out with them. Maybe thats why we all have fallen for them. Well, always remember to protect your heart, thats all. *well at least thats what I say to myself:P*

Just a few pic's we photowhores took yesterday at MOS. HEH:) the freaking Smoove room was so bloody jam packed again.

The music was great, EXCEPT the bloody space! We had to practically push and shove to even get a step onto the dance floor!*horrible* Anyway met this*I think he's eurasian or something along that line guy called Sonny* He was nice, tryin to help me order my drinks. But sadly, the bartender saw me first*:) Anyway, he was nice and all and I regreted not chatting with him more so that we could get an extra round of shots! WHAHAHA oh well, more opportunities will come!*the counter thing does work*winks*

Well, hopefully we can go mambo this wed:)

On a different note, why are girls normally the more vulnerable ones? Why is it that most of the time, girls fall the hardest when a relationship doesn't work out? Why is it that girls are made to be so soft-hearted when it comes to LOVE? can someone tell me why?Why is it that when a guy goes hot and cold on us, we accomodate it? However much you love a person, no one should be treated that way.We MUST fight back! I must learn to harden my heart. I know some might argue that if one hardens his/her heart, its very difficult to un-harden it or something of that sort, but if I don't, at the end of the day the one ending up hurt would be me.isn't it?

Why is it acceptable for guys to sleep around and not get called names, and when girls sleep around, SLUT / WHORE is the word most commonly used.*can someone please enlighten me*
Oh well, I shall go to bed a disgruntled bitch and ponder over the fuckin fact mentioned above. Cheerios :)

Yesterday night was such a funny night. Not that there were clowns or anything, as said, Isaac, Eddy, Eddy's wife and I went down to Blue Bar Bistro*which is beside Mdm Wongs* to supposedly have a drink and listen to the live band. When we got there, the gate was closed, so we entered by Mdm Wong's, when we entered, we were the only people inside!!! *I mean of course there were the bartenders and waiters* And by that time was like 10ish and we were the only souls. What made it even more hilarious was that Isaac was so excited to find a seat and like order...damn funny. We didn't even bother to ask if the band was playing tonight or something.*old people*And to our disappointment, the band WASN'T going to PLAY!! ARHG! and the whole night*we sat there till about 1130pm* and there still wasn't anybody! So we decided to call it a night.

Anyway, we were sorta planning to go mountain climbing with a few other friends..whahah probably end of the year before Isaac's knee gives way and he get too old. We are probably gonna climb Mt Ophia or Kinabalu*is it spelt correctly??*I think it will be super fun to go mountain climbing!! yay..something excting :) Imagine, climbing down in darkness and stepping into the UNKNOWN! *exciting* oh and we arranged to go blading instead of drinking our friday nights away! WHAHA healthy living!

We went to take an external look at Isaac's new pad. Looks cosy, away from the buzz of the city. Well, I can't wait to have my own pad too!!! so exciting...*dreaming...*

Anyway, I think some guys are really jerks. There was this guy that my friend was telling me about, he just screws the girl and after that just chucks them aside*change girls like their changing underwear*fuckers*. Ok maybe chuck is too harsh, how about avoids them. WHAHA..anyway these guys are real jerks. Motherfuckers. I hope they get STD or get like fungi on their dicks.

Another bored afternoon for me. :( can't wait for tonight to arrive.

Skirt or pants? skirt or pants? sheesh...*girls*

I'm so gonna miss all the crazy things we have done in poly! WHAHA I'm gonna miss Hokey, my lil miss crazy, who is ''officially'' unofficially attached!! and all the other crazy friends!!! Looking at all the pictures, I just sat there like some crazy girl and laughed! its really hilarious to remember all the stupid things we did last time. :)

Went to Haagen Daz yesterday with debbs, we totally bitched non-stop! WHAHAHA, I'd better do it more often if not when she goes aussie, I'd probably have no chance to do that with her anymore!! All the scandals and bitchin, sure gonna miss it! Anyway, she tried the pink beauty and I had the Havana Sunset, both were great, the pink beauty was like strawberry milkshake!*totally love strawberries* but however, I had the havana sunset which was this mango blended thingy. It was great too!!! *tryin to stay away from diary or cream stuff* It was a nice chillll drink :)

Went over to debbs house after holland to grab the pictures that we took since year 1 of poly*reformatted my comp and lost all the photos!!!so irritating*and we continued bitchin about guys and sex and perfect girls...whahahah it was damn funny.*Debbs, we must have a slumber party before you leave yeah! then we can spend the entire night bitchin and laughing our guts out*

On the otherhand, my girly's been super duper stressed out these few days, she's got a few more days to the due date of her final garment!!! *common girly!! hang in there!* We will go out and relax after you hand in your final garment yeah!!!! :) *holds up the pom pom and hops around like a mad girl, cheering for girly!*

Okie, tonight most probably should be going to blue bar bistro with Isaac, Shuen, Eddy and his wife for drinks and just to sit and talk nonsense. Isaac's been rather busy recently, whahah so I think he needs to de-stress. yay. Haven't been to blue bar bistro before...he says its nice...acoustic live music...I think it'll be great too! :)

ok, gonna have my lunch. toodaloos

I HATE MEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FUCK ALL OF THEM. I have totally lost faith in men. Do they actually think that we are that FREE to wait around for them??*GET A LIFE!* take their time to decide this decide that, even my grandmother can make decisions faster then you can say FUCK.

-ASSHOLES-

I think I shall remain single for the rest of my life and marry my dog. At least my dog responds, at least my dog listens. :)

SO SAD!!!! :( can't go DBL O today cause jocelyn was having cramps and WoeiLing is having a swollen eye! boohoo..well we shall go another time I guess...well, TV TV here I come.

Just came back from a facial!!! yay..skin is as smooth as a baby's backside! whahaha :) Oh I bought a pair of boxers..damn cute!!! and a ROOKIE T-shirt!! yay!! so happy....but now I'm broke!shit.

Oh well, debbs, your guoyi can take back his title of president of MYY club.WHAHAH well, guys can all go FUCK themselves..Well party is on this sat!!! don't forget...:) ok I just got your sms..ok he can step down.-_-''

anyway, going to DBL O and maybe zouk with woeiling and jocelyn tonight!! yay... so sad to stay at home the whole day...oh well, short input today...tired and worn out :(

WoeiLing got her call from SIA today to inform her that she got selected, now I'm the only one left. So frustrating to wait for their answer, but I have this strong feeling that I may not get selected. *depress*

YAY! I'm so proud of myself!!! Ran from the first carpark of ECP to the chalet!! I didn't think I could actually do it, but luckily I had Shu~en to pace me again:) yays! I realised that when you run with someone, it distracts you, and therefore enables you to run further then you can imagine! yay*pats self on back* suppose to go take part in the standard charted marathon with Isaac and Shue~en I think, but I think I might just die half way through!!!10km!?!? WHAHA if I keep up this running, maybe its possible..MAYBE!

Anyway on another note, I HATE MEN! why why why, do they all come from the land of pigheadedness???? why. Why must he sound as if he doens't want to talk to me when you ask me to call back? why, why must you do this to me? Eventhough technically, we aren't together, and I know that both of us are hurting, why must you do this? Why must you make me feel like some evil bitch, why do you make me regret bringing it up. You claim that I'm not, you claim that you understand, but do you really? :**(

In order for you not to feel upset or anything, I put on a cheery voice, but in return I hear a sad voice. I know you are upset, I am too, I cry whenever I put down the phone with you. You say just give you sometime and you'll be back to normal, how long are you going to take? Call me when you're done giving me that tone, so I don't have to cry no more.

Why do girls have to cry? why why why *I'm weak*fuck* Sometimes I hate myself.

Breaking up hurts evenmore when both mutually agrees to call it off because of something that can't be controlled. If we broke up because of a disagreement, of over a physical object or entity, I wouldn't be like this. But the fact that we broke up cause it would be inevitable in the coming years really makes the whole break-up SUCK!FUCKING timing. fuckfuckfuck.

I HATE MY LIFE. How I wish the devil or someone would shoot me, or snipe me from afar and put me out of my misery. Loves makes and breaks like I said before. FUCK. I'm beginning to lose hope in love, why love when its destroyed in the end? why love when all you get to keep are memories? why love when it hurts one so deeply? I know why, because we are HUMAN..

Finally got my internet back on!!!*its horrible without internet* Anyway, went to collect my heart doc's report yesterday. The first letter says I'm fit to exercise as a normal individual*yay for that* but then in the comments in the tests which were conducted, the comment was something like mild valve prolapse and some regurgitation thing, god knows what it means!
After I received the report I went down to SIA's doc to hand them the documents, I met with the doc who saw me for the med test. She was reading the letter and said GOOD! *woohoo!* she said ok I shall clear you of the med test, and she wrote "Fit To Employ"yay!! but now the scary thing was that eventhough I was fit for employment, it was all in the hands of SIA!!!! FREAK!!

I'm happy for debbs! Her MYY president has finally stepped down as president cause he finally found his balls to make a decision. He finally decided that he loved debbs more than he loved his gf*ok I hope he did break-up because he loved her more!* YAY for her, and bye bye singlehood for her!! WHAHAHA no more outrageous partyin! WHAHA well, debbs like I said, we have exchanged roles!!! WHAHA *irony* Well, he better treat you nice or else I will smack him when I see him! :p

Its funny how long people take to decide what they want, somethimes its unclear, sometimes, they want to have the best of both worlds!*totally doesn't work that way!*

Going for my ECP run with Isaac and his friends today! yay, now I kinda like running, you find your pace and keep at it, thats how I was able to run a what seemed impossible distance!!!! whaha well, I hope my running's paying off!!*keeping the fats off!!!not tht I'm anything close to skinny*

Well, there are alot of things I want to rant here, but for the sake of privacy and whatevernots, I CAN'T!!! IRRITATING!! later I get sued or chopped by unhappy people,*but I dont think they even read my blog!*

Ohh, I wanted to buy this pretty bra yesterday, but then I kinda decided that it kinda like those crappy pierre cardin ones where one wash and it bloody goes out of shape!*waste of money*so sad, pink straps and polkey dotty!!!so pretty!!! shucks