Good Mourning Sunday

Now I realise how difficult it is for two people who doesn't understand each other to be together. Its so torturing for both, its like a hokkien uncle talking to a indian guy. ok bad example.

I guess I have no luck with guys or relationhips for that matter. Everytime you think he's the one, it always turns out not to be. Its frustrating cause you have to start again, all the time, the effort, the tears and sweat put into every relationship. I just don't understand why does it always happen to me, I know I'm not the only one to face this problem. I don't blame anyone for the failure of the relationship, but I do hate the person for his actions post-breakup.Its all a lie, I mean all the crap about oh I will tell you if I'm with someone else blah crap crap crap. Its so F.O.S. trust me to believe him. I think I should be streetsmart enough, but I guess I'm not love-smart, I'm a love-retard. Someone save me.

Anyway I don't hate the person I guess, like I said its his actions that hurt me, and its just him, no way I can change anything. I won't change my mind as to why we couldn't be together, I won't change my mindset just because he think's I'm blaming him. There are some principles we have to abide by in order to make sure we don't lose ourselves. Sounds selfish I know, but love hurts, admit it, love sometimes even suck. But we all fall into it regardless of its reputation.

Everything is behind me, I will try my very best to not hate anyone. Get on with life, enjoy it.What comes after this, I will take all in good stride.(:

This reminds me of 2 songs the first would be nelly furtado's Why do all good things come to an end followed by I don't feel like dancin. (: Happy sunday peeps!

Just got home from Jakarta. God! the hotel didn't even put towels into the bathroom! I was bathing halfway when I realised that they didn't put towels!! All I had was 1 miserable hand towel, I was like WTF, so no choice I had to use the hand towel to dry myself first. So stupid *_*''

5 of us went for a massage at this place called ylang ylang, its for ladies only I think, its like 2 hrs inclusive of massage, body scrub and body mask, turned out rather well, cept' for the body mask which was kinda difficult to wash off, but total we only paid S$23 for 2 hrs!! If on;y massage in Singapore would be that affordable(:

Ok I think its time to get back on track with my bloggin. I just came back from Male, don't worry its not male as in male testicles or whatever. its Ma-le as in like this place in the maldives I think. The place was fantastic! The water was like crystal clear and the sun was just so nice! Its so nice to be out in the sun again. For a moment I kinda forgot how was it like to just sit by the beach and hear the waves and just fall asleep. Its definitely a place I will pick for a holiday!(:

The crew which I was with made my male experience even better, we hung out, had a few drinks, went to the beach, some got thrown in, some wanted to go in. Too bad the stay was so short. We only spent 1 night in male, on the day of departure, a few of us met up for lunch, then went for a dip, then had dinner before our flight. None of us wanted to go back, it was like a holiday for us. I really appreciated the spontanity of my collegues. They were hell of a fun! It was definitely the best flight ever.

However, with each good thing comes a bad side. Something unpleasent happened on the trip. None of us wanted this sorta things to happen, but oh well, sometimes people may well be slightly more sensitive. Totally spoiled the goodtime mood man, but I guess the few of us who were involved has surely gotten closer, from collegues to friends. Which is great.(:

I really hope to work with them again!

On another note, does it come a time where you just want to stop breathing for a day. That you just wished for god to give you more energy, like the energizer bunny. Never stop jumping or hoping or whatever it does. How I wished I was that bunny, cause if I were that bunny I wouldn't get tired, I wouldn't have a limit to my energy. Wouldn't that be nice?hmmm.... But sadly, we are made of human organs, a real heart, lungs whatever, things that will one day breakdown or fall apart. Strip those away and give me 2 AA batteries and I could go on forever.

I think work is starting to take its toll on me. Was running a temperature yesterday night, coughing and have phelgm coming out from my nose(this is where you go GROSSSSS) but who cares! whahahahah

I wanna go mambo, I wanna catch up with friends I have neglected, new friends I've made.I must start to learn how to love my life. gosh. Someone save me.