Just got off the web call with him.

Don't know why but, aren't I suppose to feel happy that I got to talk to him much more to see him? Instead I feel worse. I feel that he's so far away, and maybe he's just talking to me to entertain me. Not that he's not interested but I'm not sure why it feels so crappy after putting down. Maybe he's not interested in trying long-d anymore, then again maybe its just me.

Oh well, there's nothing I can do, really. Just take it as it is. Don't wanna probe too much into who's he going out with, or whats he doing with who, cause I think knowing just makes my mind wander. I should just do my best at this whole trusting game. If anything should come out of his be it good or bad, I guess I shall just take it in good stride. But the road to where I'm going is definitely bumpy, need a monster truck to get me through this.

Morning everyone.